So...
Here I am.
Trying to be a grown up.
Trying to handle being home alone.
Went to the shops. Got some wine. Ordered Indian. Ate.Sat down on my bean bag. Began to study.
No music... No TV… Silence…
I hear keys.
I don't worry. I hear keys all the time. My apartment door is right next to the communal elevator.
The keys get louder.
For a moment I think Mr.J has come home early to surprise me. I stop and think.
I have his keys.
The key is now sliding in the lock. There is someone there.
They are turning the key. They push on the door. I start to sweat. I can feel the panic rising in my entire being….Thoughts start racing through my mind. Did I lock the door? Did I take my keys out of the door? Who the fuck is there?
I want to scream at them. I want to say something. Anything. I have no words. I have no voice.
I hear them. Turning the handle. Trying the key again. Shaking the door. It wont budge.
Will it?
I race down the hallway. Grab the phone from my bedroom. Jump in my wardrobe. Call my mum. There is nothing she can do. She is miles away.
I turn on the TV. Loudly. I call the police. I call Ms.K.
"someone is trying to get in"
"im on my way"
I pack a bag. Drink more wine. Smoke a cigarette. She arrives. The police arrive. Nothing they can do.
We leave.
I am safe.
Goodbye Boogie Man
Friday, January 11, 2008
Tuesday, January 8, 2008
What About Ben?
What about Ben?
Computer nerd
Married
Mid - 20's
More sex appeal in his little toe than some guys have in their whole bodies
Yet not the sexiest guy out there…
What is it about Ben that people cant seem to get enough of
Everyone wants his attention
Everyone loves to flirt with him
He loves to flirt with everyone
But if it's with you its always so much more meaningful right?
He's always on her mind
He see's the way she looks at him
She see's the way he looks at her
Is he just being playful
She doesn't know
She quivers when they make eye contact
She feels a pulse where she shouldn't
She wants him
He lingers in her thoughts
She dreams about him
Naughty dreams
She wants him even more
Why
What power does he possess that all the others don't
No one knows
No one will ever know
For he has left
Gone
He may return again
He may not
But he will forever be in her mind
In her head
In her dreams
But what about Ben?
Computer nerd
Married
Mid - 20's
More sex appeal in his little toe than some guys have in their whole bodies
Yet not the sexiest guy out there…
What is it about Ben that people cant seem to get enough of
Everyone wants his attention
Everyone loves to flirt with him
He loves to flirt with everyone
But if it's with you its always so much more meaningful right?
He's always on her mind
He see's the way she looks at him
She see's the way he looks at her
Is he just being playful
She doesn't know
She quivers when they make eye contact
She feels a pulse where she shouldn't
She wants him
He lingers in her thoughts
She dreams about him
Naughty dreams
She wants him even more
Why
What power does he possess that all the others don't
No one knows
No one will ever know
For he has left
Gone
He may return again
He may not
But he will forever be in her mind
In her head
In her dreams
But what about Ben?
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